Cocaine Addiction

Question: I am a 41 year old mother of 4 and i have developed a cocaine addiction.?

(Posted by: I am 4 ft 12 on 2008-04-01 01:26:36)

I was first introduced to it about 2 years ago. Some friends wanted me to try it. I was reluctant at first but then was curious, never done anything in my life. I actually loved it, it made me feel more social but was only a once in awhile thing, now it's becoming a once or twice a week thing. I don't know how to tell my husband I need help. He has tried it to but has complete control and knows what the limits are and hasn't touched it in about a year. I have almost exhausted my credit card for this and then I lie saying i bought groceries or gifts. He has no idea how much i have actually spent on it. I am living a life of a lie and am looking into a NA meeting. I think if my husband finds out he may leave or make me feel belittled. Help I don't know what to do anymore.

Posted by: Tyrus on 2008-04-01, 02:13:02

Because of the increasing purity of coke, there is an increasing greater chance of instant addiction than ever before. The purity increases the intensity and duration of stimulation of the pleasure centers of the brain. In addition, if you use it soon enough after your last toot, you with need exponentially more of it to get high and that high will never be as good as the earlier on, but the side affects will hit you harder with a stronger rebound afterwards. NA and narc-Anon are good I would recommend narc-Anon Based on what i appears you are saying, you have run out of rope and taken the generosity and love of your family-the people who love and depend on you for granted and basically spent your children's education and money for their future of your nose. Traditionally, if you want to still keep it from your family there are three more stages you can follow: 1) Sell your body for sex-that way you can say you are no longer spending money for your habit while the payments of the credit card multiple 2) Steal from others or keep asking for money until they refuse and you loose your family and best friends keeping your pals who got you hooked and you use with. 3) Put on sex shows with others to both pay for your coke and try to pay off your credit cards. Either way you go-the next steps are going to get exponentially more humiliating and the more humiliating it seems, the less chance you will want to admit it others. The longer you wait to help yourself, the greater your chance of losing not only the husband and children you love, but so your friends, you house and all the things you ave taken for granted since you were a little girl growing up with your loving parents. You also have a greater chance of being arrested by the police. When yu fall into debt with street thugs who sell it, all the want in return is sex, trading drugs or money-nothing else. A nice movie to see I requiem for a dream. I bet you are a very nice and attractive person that on the surface every man would love to have. For the love of god, please come clean with your husband and take care of this issue before it eats you up a live. This can be licked and quickly. Although you will always be an addict, with Coke, it's something that you've been doing for just 2 years so far and can definately get over. Go ahead an start getting treatment now. ou are not a weak person for asking for help. You are a weak person if you done. Based on what I see written, you need to kick this right now

Posted by: connemara on 2008-04-01, 01:30:09

Go to your doctor and explain to him or her what you have stated here. Go now.

Posted by: Ren Hoek on 2008-04-01, 01:37:34

Seek the help of a psychiatrist who is NOT involved in a substance-abuse clinic. Substance-abuse treatment is a money racket. Modern antidepressants can help fill the gap left by the cocaine without the addiction liability and cost. You want a middle-of-the-road psychiatrist (MD or DO) who will evaluate you. You should get some meds and a referral to a psychologist for talk therapy. That you recognize your problem is a very positive sign and the frequency with which you use the drug (not every day) is promising. See the doctor right away. Don't do any more coke!!

Posted by: old man on 2008-04-01, 02:12:05

Start with narc-Anon or even AA, get your head right then decide how to tell your husband. You have to do something, now for the sake of your children.It would be better to be single and clean than living a lie stoned.Get rid of those idiot friends immediately.

Posted by: liddle_angel on 2008-04-01, 03:02:29

If you don't stop this now and get some help, you are going to lose your kids...and I am sure that they are far more important to you than your drugs...please,..you have been seduced by good old Satan and his false feelings of euphoria...and you have everything to risk...you really need to get a hold as soon as possible,...if your husband loves you,...then you need to tell him to cut off your credit cards, etc...please, pray to God for Help through Jesus before you lose everything...my prayers are with you

Posted by: killin_loneliness on 2008-04-03, 21:49:38

Well hun the reson u feel more social is because powder makes u talk ur ass off about anything and everything... u end up spilling ur entire life story out to strangers... but guess wat... ull have a nice little reminder inside ur nasal cavity a hole... which will bleed even after u quit ... u need to gather up some will power and quit for urself and ur daughters... they are gonna be crushed if they find out ur addicted to coke and not quitting... its better to know there is a problem and the person is fixing it than to think they have given up and dropped to a level where nothing matters... get help... ur husband after 4 kids is more than likely gonna support u getting clean... doesnt matter tho u picked it up and im sorry but with kids u have to suffer wat comes... if hes pissed and leaves well atleast ur clean and u will still see ur kids if u dont get clean and try to continue covering it up and get discovered they are probly gonna limit ur visitation with ur kids and not allow u to be around them like u want ... so i suggest getting help period... for ur sake and ur kids